Nice and not nice
August 16, 2021
Not nice is
- Giving birth on a dirty carpark floor
- Still contracting afterward to deliver the placenta
- Having the obgyn open the wound to get the remaining tissue out and attempt to stitch me raw (he eventually put painkillers in my i.v drip)
- Hospitals, en general. The staycay novelty wears out quickly
Nice is
- Coming home
- Seeing my family
- The parents making their way safely here
- My bed
Not nice is
- Recovering from delivery- sitting on vjj stitches remains one of the major pains- and they aren’t even as searing, this time
- Avoiding the stitches, one proceeds to develop a sore tailbone from shifting around; a sensation verging on burning
- Constipation, and trying to poop with stitches down there
- Milk, milk, milk. Waiting for milk to come. Hoping there’s milk to come. Inescapably tying milk production and self-worth.
Nice is
- The twelve cookies and two brownies I ate while in hospital
- 猪脚除,fish papaya soup, and red date tea
- My clothes fitting better than they have for months + no longer 24/7 feeling like my belly is about to burst from the strain
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Day 4 了,when will milk come in; will milk come in?