But, Christ

September 29, 2015

do you know shame?
cuz i do
i think of what i shouldn’t, too

i know temptation,
fear and disgust
i know sin,
guilt and mistrust
do you know shame?
cuz i do
i dwell on what i oughtn’t to


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“live richly”

September 19, 2015

‘what I’m going to say, uh, before i toast you, mm, is what i think you already do, but – live richly when you’re over there. you already do, i know, you have this… ability to be present where you are, taking in all the good and all the bad, not running, not hiding, not being in denial… and turning it into, i don’t know, like, justice, where there wasn’t at first. so i know you’ll do that anyway, but, you know – live richly.’

sunday reports

September 15, 2015

we walked around in the haze, for plants and flowers. i brought home orchids and a plant whose flowers looked like the ginger’s, and gave them away. i hope they survive the haze. i was smoked out by evening, and sat on the sofa quietly stoned.

mommy gave us fish, and four managed to die in fortyeight hours. they were quietly taken out of their cloudy tank and my hands after that. they’re swimming around in a swanky tank with other transparent fish-shaped pieces of florescent red and incandescent blue strips now. they’ve been behaving, so i suppose they’ll continue on sufferance and me in debt. i think the cloudy tank could have worked…

listening to various voices now; i liked the girl who sang for her grandfather best. i split too much water on the couch today. our tiles are done, and we’ve said goodbye to our tilers. designs are pretty much finalised, ready for the making.

i wonder where we’re going.


It will only ever be you.

Wherever we’d go.

Today, I read of news in Europe and the middle east. How significant, how heartbreaking. And how will the world look in thirty years, the coming year; will I be mixed up in these?

i made up a song today

September 7, 2015

and it went along the lines of world’s mushiest song. but managed to fall asleep, anyway, somehow. he’s snoring softly at the moment.

i also went to two tiles shops today, and enjoyed myself. if i had my way, my house would be a dizzying wonderland of patterns and styles. lemme show you:


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Way more fun than wedding planning! I could definitely drag this process out. Haha.