November 21, 2012

21-7=14 which is 2 weeks, just two weeks but so much can change in two weeks.

1) i’m semi-officially done with P, that is to say, while i’m no longer expected through its doors, nor will i be part of its productivity henceforth, i’m on its payroll till the end of the year. which reminds me, i need to spend five hundred dollars.

either this new circumstance has yet to sink it, having happened so quickly, or i am remarkably ambivalent, or else, adaptive, or something else all together. mmm if nothing else time will tell. this story is done; all my agonising will soon be a thing of the past, God willing. time will tell.

2) no longer footloose and fancy free, me. formally asked and definitively answered, i am henceforth accountable to and responsible for life with another- you may take the head noun/phrase on both its meanings.

i am absolutely clueless as to how this new state of affairs will develop in time to come, and confess that my self-sufficiency and headstrong nature and, oh so many other things feel menacing, like hidden monsters in my way, but remember-

cowards run, heroes fight

Christ, it’s all about You my Saviour and my King, my Father who loves me and him and His Spirit who will lead us in what is right. i will take this day by day for now, seeking Your face in the morning light, and ending each day with You by night. and i know we will get there.

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